You looked at me once awhile ago...

But did you really see me?

2/18/08 11:34 am - I am...

a home wrecker
insecure
a heart breaker
confused
sick and it sucks

8/8/07 11:25 pm - 11th Husband

A lawyer married a woman who had previously divorced ten husbands.

On their wedding night, she told her new husband, "Please be gentle, I'm still a virgin."

"What?" said the puzzled groom.

"How can that be if you've been married ten times?"

"Well, Husband #1 was a sales representative: he kept telling me how great it was going to be.

Husband #2 was in software services: he was never really sure how it was supposed to function, but he said he'd look into it and get back to me.

Husband #3 was from field services: he said everything checked out diagnostically but he just couldn't get the system up.

Husband #4 was in telemarketing: even though he knew he had the order, he didn't know when he would be able to deliver.

Husband #5 was an engineer: he understood the basic process but wanted three years to research, implement, and design a new state-of-the-art method.

Husband #6 was from finance and administration: he thought he knew how, but he wasn't sure whether it was his job or not.

Husband #7 was in marketing: although he had a nice product, he was never sure how to position it.

Husband #8 was a psychologist: all he ever did was talk about it.

Husband #9 was a gynecologist: all he did was look at it.

Husband #10 was a stamp collector: all he ever did was... God! I miss him! But now that I've married you, I'm really excited!"

"Good," said the new husband, "but, why?"

"You're a lawyer. This time I know I'm gonna get screwed!"

Current Music: Get it Shawty - LLoyd

Current Mood:

*dance*

8/5/07 01:08 pm

This is going to be a quicky. No details just events.

I had surgery about a week ago. I'm fine.

Ernie and I broke up yesterday.

I got a 2nd job at ihop. Making a shit load of money, surprisingly.

I'm going to SCC to get my AS in Architectual Design and Construction technology, all for free.

My dad's forcing me to move back in with my mom. She now lives in Orlando.

That's all, folks.

4/30/07 12:07 pm

Life has been interesting, but oh so good...

On Wednesday I graduate... Well I don't truly graduate but I am walking and then I'll get my diploma in August. I'll have all the embarrassing pictures to put up here, gah, I hate having pictures taken. I'm taking a couple college classes over the summer: ENC English 1101, and Intermediate Algebra. I'm taking the Algebra mostly because I wanted to brush up on my math.

I'm in the process of trying to get a scholarship right now. It'll pay for everything for two years, here at SCC and you have to get an A.S. in Computer Science, Engineering, or Mathematics... I'm going for the Engineering, more specifically Architectural Design and Construction Technology.

I know... I keep changing my mind about everything... But in the end I still know where I want to be: In Ohio with my lover.

Today is my last day of school.... I've got an A in English, A in Psychology... and fuck if I know the rest, but most likely A's.

Work has been sucking lately, bad. I've been there for over a fucking year and they all treat me like crap... however, the money is decent for my age... I'm going to try to find myself a morning job as a server... maybe perkins? or Ihop?

My lover and I are doing great.... we're still in that adoration phase and it doesn't look like it will be ending anytime soon. Gods, there's so much I wish to say... We're amazing together, we really are. I love it when he spends the night, it feels so wonderful to feel his body against mine all night long and to wake up and have him be the first thing I see and feel in the morning. Only 10.5 months before we can move in together, lol.

I've been saving money like crazy... I guess I'm worried? I don't know... I think I just want to make sure that I have enough money to get and do everything that I want to do once I turn 18. examples: moving, a nice car, furniture, I want to start a retirement fund….

Tuesday is going to suck… My mom wants to take me to the mall and go shopping for a dress for graduation and dinner. I’m not supposed to know, but for dinner we’re going to my lover’s job, Ruth’s Chris Steakhouse. While at the mall she wants to make an appointment for Wednesday to get my hair and makeup down, along with getting my pictures taken… joy!

My Grandmother, mother, father, boyfriend, and boyfriend’s mother are all going to the graduation. Then we’re all going to dinner except for the gram’s, she doesn’t want to go. I’ve already pre-warned Ernie and Danielle that I will be so fake on Wednesday, smiling a lot, laughing, acting like I’m having a great time… though hopefully it won’t all be fake, I’m sure I’ll enjoy some of it… especially the alone time I’ll have with my lover after everything.

I don’t really know what to type about, but I’ll be in class for another 40 minutes still…

……….

… I want to go to sleep.

Current Mood:

content

3/8/07 11:27 am

Besides all my fucking health issues, life has been amazing.

I've never been happier, I'm even getting a bit more self-esteem, which one could always use.

My lover might be moving into sunshadow apts. with his brother. I really hope they do because then I can copy a key and go visit him early in the morning and hopefully surprise him... Though, I'm not sure how much of a surprise it would be considering he'll probably read this.

He recently got a job working at Ruth's Chris Steakhouse, I'm so proud of him. I am, however, a little sad that he is leaving me at Bob Evans to fend for myself against all the bitches, but he's still my lover and that means he'll still be here for me when I need him.

Once I'm out of class I'm heading over to the bookstore to get a cap and gown for graduation. Then I'm taking the rest of the day off from school.

....................................................................................................................................

I'm not completely sure how to explain how I feel about any of this but I know that I'm head over heels in love with Ernie, and I'm happy, School's going good and I'm soon to be out... Everything is working...

YAY!!

2/27/07 10:10 pm

I saw my OBGYN last week and he thinks that I endometriosis. I believe I spelled that correctly. I go in tomorrow for a transabdominal ultrasound and transvaginal ultrasound so that they can figure out what I have....

This all really sucks....

Thankfully, though, I have m'love with me the whole time through all this crap....

Current Mood:

uncomfortable

2/18/07 03:05 pm

*waves* Hello, everyone. I hope y'all are doing well.

I've been doing very well, besides being sick. I'm not sure how but I've obtained an ovary infection, but it should almost be all gone by now. I saw the doctor last Monday and she gave me these horrible pills, but they seem to be working because I don't feel as much pain. Before that I had another UTI and in between the two I had a really bad cold.

I'm in love with, what I think the most amazing guy. He's been with me and helped support me in all these times I've been sick, which has been a lot. It astounds me how everything can feel so wrong and everything can be going so badly and he'll be my rock to keep me balanced and rooted.

Work has been profitable. I've been working extra shifts, and attempting to save most of what I make. We're all getting a new schedule soon and I'm not completely positive but I'm pretty sure mine will be from Thursday - Monday all starting at 5. This means I can cover more morning shifts and make more.

Most people know by now that I've been planning to move back to Ohio once I turn 18, and everything I do now and within the next year will be preparation for my move. Assuming everything goes well I will be taking m'love, Ernie, with me to Ohio and we'll finally be able to live and be with each other everyday. I've been saving up money and have a good chunk already. Ernie had also given me a good idea to start saving up all my change and use it for gas money for when I visit Ohio and then move there. I plan on moving about a month after I visit. Which has been working out well, as a waitress I get lots of change, because I roll quarters at least once a week.

I've been doing well in school, my last day at the school will be April 30 and then graduation is on May 2nd. I'm so excited. Though I still have to take OJT and an online class over the summer, then I'll officially be done. But either way it's still really exciting considering I wouldn't have been done until May '08. Once summer starts I'm going to picking up a second job, again. I'm hoping to maybe work at Perkins in the morning. It seems like they would have a good breakfast crowd seeing how close they are to the high way n all.

Current Music: The Collector, NIN

Current Mood:

happy

1/3/07 02:21 pm - I'm alive... sick but alive

Theived from Dani, angelx422

In 2006 I...

[ ] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x] kissed someone new
[x] made out
[x] made out in a car
[ ] kissed in the snow
[x] kissed in the rain
[ ] had my heart broken
[x] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[x] lost a friend
[ ] had a good relationship with someone
[ ] questioned my sexual orientation
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[ ] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[ ] did something I regret
[ ] lost my true love
[ ] lost faith in love
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[x] got a promotion
[x] got a pay raise
[x] changed jobs
[ ] lost my job
[x] quit my job
[x(dating)] dated a coworker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/daughter
[ ] got fired from my job
[ ] got straight A's
[x] met a teacher who I became friends with
[ ] met a teacher who I really hate
[ ] found the subject I love
[ ] failed a class
[x] cut class
[x] skipped school
[ ] got in a fight with a classmate
[x] did something I was proud of
[ ] discovered a new talent
[x] proved myself an idiot
[ ] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[ ] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] wrote a poem
[ ] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldn't stand
[x] double dipped
[x] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[ ] went to camp
[ ] threw a surprise party
[ ] laughed till I cried
[ ] laughed till I peed my pants
[ ] flirted shamelessly
[ ] visited a foreign country
[ ] visited a foreign province
[ ] cooked a disastrous meal
[ ] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[x] went on a diet
[ ] tried to gain weight
[x] dyed my hair
[ ] came close to losing my life
[x] someone close to me died
[ ] went to a wild party
[x] drank alcohol
[x] drank alcohol underage
[ ] got drunk
[ ] got arrested
[x] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[x] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[x] snuck out
[ ] got in trouble with police
[x] kissed in a pool
[x] kissed under the stars
[ ] smoked
[ ] did illegal drugs
[ ] got wasted
[ ] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[x] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool
[ ] made a snowman
[ ] went snowboarding
[ ] went skiing
[ ] went sledding
[x] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someones hand that you care about
[ ] got wasted in a public place
[ ] got wasted in Mexico
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[ ] gone on vacation
[ ] gone on vacation with a friend
[x] driven a car
[ ] played strip poker
[x] danced in the rain
[ ] got in a car accident
[x] seen someone get in a car accident
[ ] got in a fist fight
[ ] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year
[ ] missed someone
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[x] got a new pet
[x] enjoyed this year overall

Current Mood:

sick